Sorry, my friend.

Nooo, I haven't done any bad things to him. I didn't hurt him. But what I do though is being like a limpet, at least sometimes. I am aware of that. I use him as my little straw to hold on to while being in a maelstrom of emotions. I feel very attached to him, I trust him and I know he understands me a lot. But I always forget one thing, that he has his own life with lots of friends, a boyfriend, family, his hobbies and his own problems as well and that he cannot always be there for me even though he wants to. 

But I know I don't leave him space to breath, I come too close too often. That is one of my bad characteristics, to try to claim people. So I guess I will have to learn to keep some distance. I don't always have to speak to him when I see him online or contact him in other ways. Let's see if I will manage. I know I'm not good in these things.

I am sorry, my friend, I apologize.